In Want of Perfect Life!
Always wanted to live a perfect life,
From the day I was born,
Was told to say the politically correct things,
Not the things that I felt.
Playing with the dolls,
Getting soaked up in mud,
Building houses, breaking stuff,
Wandering through dusk,
It was a thing for idle kids.
Not meant for me.
While growing up ws told:
Good grades should be the aim,
Could get away with anything by a lie,
Talking to people about oneself – a sign of madness
Friends are not to be trusted,
For family and their needs come first.
With sisters to ape and follow,
It’s wrong to have an opinion,
That is a comfort of brightest.
Doing things that you like is a sin.
For you are dull to know what is right for you.
Divine pleasure is sacrifice.
All I wanted to live a perfect life.
With a broad smile,
Stood against the Almighty,
The father of all!
Knew how proud he would be of me,
For I lived the perfect life
He stood there with broadest smile
With sorrow hard to hide,
Looked straight in my eyes
And said,
“Did you live life?”
A reply came, ‘“yes”, my lord – a perfect one’.
A sigh was all he could manage
And asked,
‘Did you like the magnificent oceans with waves?
The glorious forests with broken paths,
The lovely flowers with scents,
Tall hills with snow on top-
All the beauty I created for you.’
I was shocked,
With a low whisper, I said
‘Was all that meant for me?
You send me to take orders
To earn money and get all materials pleasure,
And not to enjoy my life the way I want’.
The god gave me the kindest smile
That would melt all your fears.
He asked me again,
‘Did you hug someone?
Said I love you,
Comforted and loved someone.’
I was petrified,
‘These things are meant for idle people
And not for the perfect people living perfect life isn’t it?’
He looked down,
With shadows of tears in his eyes
I earnestly asked
‘Aren’t you happy, I lived the perfect life?
You intended me to do so.’
He did not smile this time,
Slowly and softy he said,
‘I never intended you to be perfect,
You were meant to be imperfect,
To be yourself and not a replica,
To love the beauty I created,
To find me by falling in love with you’
Tears came rolling down my cheeks
Flashes of hell came into my mind.
As if reading my mind,
He gave me the biggest smile.
Hugged me tightly and said,
‘I love you!’
‘You are special to me, my child
Now live life the way you wanted to be.
I love you for what you are.’
I never knew the magic of hug and
Of those the three beautiful words
I knew than-
What heaven felt like!
Hand in hand, he took all my pains.
I knew how it felt like
To live a life at last;
Without chains and
At last I gave up the perfect life
For the life of my own
Thank you for the life you created in me
For I know you are proud of me.